i think that, i really REALly have to like, get my mind off my kids when i am out of the school compound. apart from marking e worksheets lah of course. i mean, eversince i started teaching my form class, i am like, literally thinking abt them Almost ALL the time! n i am so not enjoying it ok... hmmphh... i mean, i just cant stop thinking how stubborn they are at times. i scold them, they keep quiet for abt 10 secs, then the whole cycle repeats.
Seriously, i'm not a very fierce person. i don't like to raise my voice. At All. i just feel like i haven't been myself every time i step into e classroom. i tried speaking to them nicely, but they just won't listen. it's like, i really Really have to sound angry n fierce before they'll listen to me.
so, i begin to ask myself. am i really a Lousy teacher?? or isit those kids who r just Too stubborn...?? or isit The school's fault??
*long sigh*
not all of my kids are stubborn actually. only a handful of them. but stll...
*long sigh*
kids nowadays r just too... Pampered. just look at my 8 yr old cousin. now i begin to wonder how my Real kids will turn out like...
*longer sigh*
ok lah, enough of story-ing abt my kids. i have other things to think of too u noe... hehe;)
hmm... i think that 3 days is already sufficient for me to get to noe roughly how my kids are. i mean, each of them are special. n some just happens to be a little bit MOre Special than e others. hahahaa.
i enjoy teaching them. i think... hehe;)but wad i can't stand is that i HAve to be fierce ALL e time:( it's tiring ok to not be able to be nice... coz once u give in to their wants, they wil start to demand for more. kids nowadays r just, erm... different than kids during my time...?? hahahh. but thank god there's no Rude kids or "Attitude" kids. there's only a few problematic kids in my class. i just hope no parent will call up e school to complain abt me. hee=)
n btw,
$X x 6 x 5 - CPF - food - transport = to quite a huge sum of $$$... hahahh;p
*sigh* i suddenly feel like going to East Coast again. i want to lie down on e sand n look up to see those Puffy clouds again... hihihh:D
i feel like i've been working so hard dis past few weeks. mondays to saturdays summore... i just hope wad i see on 7th Aug will keep my spirits high again uh. hehe;)
those RT ppl keep on making me so confused. 1st this lah... then tat lah... then this lah... n its all TOO Last minit summore they inform me. but nvmlah. I was e one who initially Wanted this RT job so much anw=)
"skarang ko dah dpt Tik. so rasakan lah!" Muahahaa~ *evil laugh* ;p
oh yar! today my sweetheart will be home! yay~ but he's still in e process of healing. Poor him... *sigh*
So, today i'll be doing RT again at Greenwood PS. n tmr i'll be Officially starting to do RT for my long term RT class... I'm a bit worried tat i'll get another chaotic class again. coz i soOooo00o do Not like to shout2 n scold2 ppl. my target is to at least be able to do RT till end of e term, aka for another 6 weeks including this week. i mean, i think it will be fun to celebrate National Day in a PS! hehe;)
anw, yesty i Officially quitted my Pharmacy job. n they seemed to be happy coz a gave them a little farewell gift. hihh:D after saying my goodbyes n all, i took 1 last look at IMH, then off i went to IJC. i was Supposed to meet Rachel there, but she forget to bring her HP!!! huhuhu:( but nvmlah, maybe some other time i can get together with her again.
hmm... wad else eh?? oh yar, my sweetheart will only be back tmr... hopefully ah. *sob*sob* i hope he's doing better. coz i Really REALly don't want them to put him to sleep... i'll cry like mad ah if they do tat. i'll be so sad lah... :(
anw, below r e pics taken during my ECP trip with Mingli n YiLing. yeah, we ended up not going to Pulau Ubin... hahahh;p
(Aiyo... why is there white patches arnd e pics?? haha, i oso don't noe... ;)
Gosh, e last week has been super Unpredictable. my what-i-thought was going to be a dull week soon became a Very hectic week... plus my PMS, it only made me feel stressed, confused, excited n thankful all at e same time. i've no mood to blog abt it today. coz today i also have many things to attend to...
1)Quit Pharmacy job
2)Collect A-level cert
3)Meet up with Rachel
4)Spend time with my cat...
Haiz, i actually thought i will only feel happiness today. but yeah, it's not up to me to determine Everything rite? hehh. i just hope that my sweetheart will get well soon. I'll pray for him to be cheeky again. haha;p
ingat Tik ingat, diSebalik awan yg mendung pasti ada Matahari yg sedang bersinar terang... so, Smangat Tik! Smangat~ insyaAllah, everything will goes well. eventually ah... hehe.
Let's start from yesty morning...
i got another Mendaki RT offer for Pri 2 at Fuchun Primary. but this time, it was a very2 eye-opening Xperience. the kids were, OMG... Chaotic!!! n it only takes 1 little girl to start being bossy, n the rest followed. Urghh~ if she was my daughter, i'll definitely jentik her lips n ear seh. lips for talking back, n ear for disobeying orders. if tats not enuff, i'll beat her hands ah for being rude...
Waahh~ i feel like i'll be a fierce mother one day... ok, so maybe i'll make my future-husband do all tat. ehehe;) i can tolerate naughty/mischievious behaviour, but rude?? oh no no no... but they eventually listened to me after they were tired of running around n "bullying" me. hahahh;p n somehow, i think tat maybe, just maybe i wont be getting anymore Mendaki RT offers:( coz 1 of e teacher-in-charge saw how chaotic the class was... huhuhu:( but it's ok, it was fun while it lasted. hehehh... n becoz those kids were very disobedient, i'ved decided to eat the 12 bars of Kit-Kat myself!!! nyahahaa~ *evil laugh*
but my rest of the day was enjoyable=) it was Very enjoyable actually. Swensen was very yummy... Hancock was entertaining... n e NE Show was Great! e flying thingy-s in e sky were sooo amazing, making all those turns n shapes in e sky. n yes2, e fireworks was very, WoW too! u won't see me in e pics below, but i was there ok... i was sitting beside e cameraman who took those pics. *wink*wink* hehehe;)hmm...i suddenly feel patriotic... hahahh=)
I love little children!!! they r soo Cute! can't sit still for more than 30 mins, but its ok lah. its normal for little kids to run here n there:) btw, thru this 3.5hr experience, i think i'm only suitable to teach children aged 8 & below lah. coz i think i'm tOo nice... hihihh;p little kids will find me fun, but those older kids will Definitely find me boring as their teacher. if u noe me well, u'll noe wad i mean lah:D
so wad did i teach them? hmm...
i taught them how to spell Colour, Purple, Orange, Taste, etc2... made them share/draw/write abt their fav fruits... read storybooks with them, n taught them how to pronounce a few words properly... how to add/subtract 2 digit numbers with a single digit number... how to tell time, but only e easy ones uh... played a drawing game with them...
yeah, i think tats abt it. i hope they can remember at least how to add big numbers using e method i taught, n also how to tell e half-past-X time n X o'clock time. n ouh! how to spell those words i taught them too! =)
after that, we cancelled e trip to JB coz it was drizzling. so i went Shopping with my mum instead! wee~
IOU money mummy... hehehh;)
tak sangka bsk nak gi relief this Mendaki tuition class. but its a Primary 1 class uh, 1 day jer. how hard can it be rite? rite...?? hehe. jgn i yg end up kena bully sudah... hahaa;p
duuh~ rojaknyer i bebual. mcm maner nk jadi teacher camni?! tell me camner?? hahahh..